自己嫌悪(じこけんお)

じこけんお
noun
self-loathing; self-hatred; self-disgust
emotion
1. self-loathing; self-hatred; self-disgust
The feeling of disgust, hatred, or strong dissatisfaction with oneself, often following a failure, mistake, or recognition of one's own shortcomings.
I fell into self-loathing after making the same mistake again.
自己嫌悪(じこけんお)に苛(さいな)まれている。
I'm tormented by self-hatred.
言(い)い過(す)ぎてしまい、自己嫌悪(じこけんお)に陥(おちい)った。
I said too much and fell into self-disgust.

Etymology

自己(じこ) (self) + 嫌悪(けんお) (loathing, disgust)

Both components are Sino-Japanese compounds:

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Usage

Describes a strong negative emotion directed at oneself. Common after:

  • Making mistakes
  • Failing to meet one's own standards
  • Behaving contrary to one's values
  • Feeling inadequate

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Slightly formal/psychological. Common in written Japanese, introspective contexts, and discussions of mental health.